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"A portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015."

With all that has been going on I've lost sight of Samuel's needs and wants sometimes. It's become very clear lately how sensitive this wonderful little person of ours is to the change that comes along with packing up our appartment. We've been trying to slow down for his sake and take him outside (of the house but also out of the situation) as often as possible. This has been his home. The only home he knows. We should respect that and stick to as much routine behaviour as we can.

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"A portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015."

Many changes ahead! So we are standing still for a moment to smell the flowers and chase cats throught the gardens. Daisy chains are obligatory.

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"A portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015."

Over the short (twelve) months of his life Samuel has lost much of his softness. With every new movement, accomplishment and step of independency his body loses its chubbiness and his mind is in constant explore-mode. When he goes to sleep though, everything becomes tender, light and oh-so-soft. Exhale, sigh, still my baby.

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"A portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015."

When Samuel was born last year, lilacs were in full bloom. Their tender smell and luscious hue accompanied us throughout Samuel's first days on this planet. This year spring seems to be delayed by about a week, nevertheless, Samuel Bruno will always be my lilac baby.

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"A portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015."

There is something incredibly endearing about a little boy who doesn't know (nor care) it's his birthday. We spent the day together, just us three, and did nothing remotely Pinterest worthy.

One Year with Samuel ● The Contradictions of Parenthood ● Adventure

One year ago today, you, Samuel Bruno, were born. It's been only one year with you but it's also been one. Whole. Year. You are our constant light, our biggest struggle, the answer to many questions, the reason for so many new ones. You have grown so much, your hands that clutch at my shoulder when you're scared are still so little. You are the reason why I get up with a smile in the morning and sometimes, go to bed after a long day, feeling defeated. Without you I'd feel lost and without purpose, with you I sometimes miss being able to drift aimlessly through the day. You make me question my abilities constantly but one gaze from you, one small gesture of trust and I know I can give you everything you need. There is nobody I know better than your tiny soul but there is also no one who surprises me more than you. Every day with you is full of endless possibilities to explore, though, repetition is what shapes our time together.
You are the best thing that ever, ever happened to us and there is no contradiction in that.
Thank you for making us the happiest people on earth, we cannot wait to see what you are up to next.
Life with you! It's the biggest adventure there is.
We love you more than we can fathom.